Upsie Daisy.

I hve no idea why I used this heading for watever that I am going to say after this but I just felt that it kind of sums up watever I feel these days.

Reading chee wee's blog has made me realize that I have the same problem as him. People do not take me seriously I guess since most of the time I am just this loud, noisy, nonsensical person talking cock and making small talk all the time. Well, I can only blame myself for that since it is wat I portray I guess. The thing is, talking to someone today made me realise how silly I can sound when I do that. In the past, I thought it was funny and all but I guess sometimes there need to be a little moderation.

I am just feeling a little strained these days. To keep up with people. and all that is happening around me. I guess all the politics going around are affecting me. It concludes something which I suspected a long time ago -- That I am a hermit reincarnated. There are times which I would rather just sit in my room and watch vcds/read books/do my work than go out and socialize and mingle with people. I hate it when I need to watch whatever I say, watch out for any wierd reactions etc..This not only applies talking to youngsters like us, but also adults. I think I might not make it past my 21st birthday at this rate. I will die a terrible death amidst all the politics and complicated human relations.

Or am I just thinking too much? Since it doesn't concern me (or so I think) then I should just take a bystander kinda attitude and watch?Even if it does involve me, I should just ignore it and adopt a "hazwana" attitude -- To be heck care abt all the gossips around u and continue to do whatever u wanna do.

There is this thing about people that I feel uncomfortable doing. That is to talk about someone you know of well behind their back. I mean I have done it once or twice, but after that I felt like shit. On the front we act as if we are so nice to that person but behind their backs we say some not-so-nice comments about them. HAHA. Ain't life contradictory and hypocritical? Then there is this thing about accumulative gossiping. Are people really feeling unhappy with that person or are they just joining in the fun and adding their own salt and pepper to the already overflowing bottle or do they really feel indignant about certain issues? That I will never know and will probably never find out. But I just hope that watever they say is really what is going on and not just adding on to the already tense situation.
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On a lighter note, I went for my hall's bash yesterday and met up with the Rigel people after that. I didn't really stay long for hall bash coz had to rush off to support the Rigel paegent girl but I did stay until the paegent preview was over. It was damn pathetic can. Only 7 people from my orientation group turned up. 3 freshies and 4 seniors. Really damn sad. I can only hear myself and few others cheering for my OG's paegent people only. But oh well. I guess so as long as the contestants had fun can alr haha.

Anws, meeting up with the Rigel people proved to be quite a scandalous session! haha. Turns out A is trying to chase B. haha. I will find out more details in due time. Had prata and proceeded to MOS with Jolynn, Candy Yaxin and 3 other juniors. Wah lau, that stupid clement and shaun just pangseh us outside the club and left with Zhi ern!!!! arghhhh....BIG TIME pangseh I tell u. Din even say bye to us lehs!!!! Totally unacceptable I tell u. haha.

But ok, clubbing with Jolynn's bf and his friend turned out to be quite fun haha simply because they were doing all sorts of nonsense! Like funny wriggly action all.

Oh wells, thats all for now. Its time for another kickass week with tutorials and lectures. I need to find some fun in them, if not it is going to be another trying semester for me.