Someone to fuss over.

Recently, I've been thinking about whether at any one point of our friendship did I fall for him.

Did I like him because we were seeing each other quite a bit and therefore I had not much time to think about other people?

Or did I really really like him.

Hmm, I guess it had to be the former because If i really did like him, I will be still thinking about our relationship now. Which I am not.

This is just a prelude as to what I am feeling so much these days.

I think my life has become a tad too routine. Revolving around friends and family only. Sometimes, I have this sudden urge to find someone to lean my head on. Someone whom I can completely trust and not keep my guard against him. I guess the support u get from your friends are kinda different from those that you get from your boyfriend or other half. Ok lah, I am not desperate ok, I mean if I was I would just go out and grab already. Its just that I have reached a stage in my life when I feel that I need something other than what I already have. To go on to another level so to speak. However, it is not as easy as choosing bread in NTUC. Just look for the expiry date and type of flavour you want. There are so many things to consider at this age when looking for your other half other than just getting together with that person jsut because you have good feelings about him. I can do that when I am 14 but not now. Or am I just considering too much? Maybe I should just relac abit and just grab anyone then haha. Wah. I talk damn big man. Not as if wanna grab means can get one some more! hahaha.

Oh well, until I figure this out or until someone significant comes along, I guess I just have to be content with whatever I have now and get one with my life.

"Oh it's so sad, oh its so sad, it's so sad when the great ship went down...."